PRISCILLA`

2012-02-13T17:08:00.002+08:00

Just tried toying around with the hair styler that i bought for myself on saturday, half sponsored by bf. :D but sadly , i dont think i can pull off with curls,although i kinda like it. never tried curling my hair before myself, and i really suck in it. oh man, my face is getting rounder. :(

2012-02-09T21:26:00.002+08:00

I love cheesecake. any kind of cheesecake. I can have it anytime, anywhere..That sinful ,soft,creamy and moist cheesecake.. and i am so craving for it right now.

2012-02-06T19:39:00.003+08:00

More Photos from Cali's 21st Birthday Celebration.

Photo credits :Zhixian :D

2012-02-06T02:29:00.005+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday Darling, although its a belated celebration, it was fun ^^.

Met this zabor in the afternoon and train all the way down to novena with her just to collect her party decorations and balloons.. A whole big bunch of pretty pretty balloons.

Later cab down to her aunt's house to start decorating the place.

she enjoyed quite a pretty few "WOW" just from novena square to the taxi stand. haahs. enjoying that little bit of attention. If we were to take the train, we most probably get stomp by some kpo people..

Pretty Balloons!

Casino Theme Decorations!

Her buffet catering, which was pretty awesome.

The birthday QUEEN!

playing dai di..

on the phone, obviously...

xinyi didnt wanna take photos with us, cause we were all wearing heels, so she seems tiny. hahahas. :D

Birthday presents from us.

To store her make up!!! and a dkny perfume.

Thanks for the invitation babe. Hope you had as much fun as we did!

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Time: 2.53AM. i have to get up in another 4 hours for school. i tried going to sleep just now, but after an hour, my eyes were still O.O .. feeling really fustrated, cause i am obviously tired and i know that i want to sleep and i need the rest, but i just cant sleep, have alot of thing son my mind... so i decided to get up.. and here i am..I think i need sleeping pills. just half a pill or wad to make myself sleep and let my body rest.Hate sundays, really. that few hours of sleep and an early class on monday morning.School and work should not start so early!!!!

Got to do something about my hair soon. I think i am going to dye it back to black, cause i really hate how my hair looks now, the horrible mixture of colours and everything. I decided not to cut it for the next few months cause i really miss my long hair and i want my long hair back.

Now dear body and mind, would you please let me sleep alrdy?

2012-02-04T01:37:00.002+08:00

Perhaps i am writing all these shit cause i am in such a horrible mood now. I tried not to be rude or offensive but there just seems to be such a gap between us. Sometimes i am so fustrated and irritated that i need a proper argument and fight between us, say me crazy or whatever. but i need a proper fight , i need a proper argument. I cant stand being pissed off at you, and you just keep quiet or say dumb shit and excuses that totally doesnt make sense at all, that quarreling with you just make me even more pissed off. I feel like i know you like the back of my hands, i am not just saying that, but i know i do. But what about you? why bother saying things and doing things when you know that i already know the truth, but you just dont wanna be honest with me? do you have a problem with honesty? i need a proper argument and fight, no matter if i cry or get pissed off or whatever shit. i need you to communicate with me instead of keeping quiet. i am not afraid of getting hurt by your words, i am not. i need you to talk back to me so that at least i know, theres a part of you that refused to open up to me, and i dont know why.

i hate it when you keep quiet during arguments and pretend as if things did not happen, i need you to face it like a man and be like a man. i cant stand you being such a child inside that 22 year old body of yours and thinking like a 12 year old. i need that man inside you to come out, to be a mature guy, to be responsible instead of saying i dunnoe all the time.You say can anything but you just choose to say i dunnoe. is that really what you tink you should say at all?i dunoe why you think its proper to even ask me about our pans for tomorrow when you refused to resolved the issues that we have together but choose to pissed me off even further. anyone in their right mind would know better than to ask such stuff to pissed e other party off even more wont they?i dont like acting like e guy in this relationship. i am the girl in this relationship and i just wanna feel like i am one. i dun wanna feel and act like i am the guy in this relationship, i dont wanna always be the mature one to think in a mature way, i dont wanna tell you what to do and what not, when you cant even plan your own budget. at times i just wanna feel like the girl in the relationship thats being protected and loved by you. i wanna be the girl behind your back. i wanna be treated like a girl. i dont wanna act like you mum for godsake. i dont wanna be with a child in a adult body.why is it so hard to be treated right by you??? 31 months, why are you still doing this to me..

i couldnt answer my mum nor nainai when they asked me if i will leave you for another guy in future, someone better. i couldnt, cause i already make up in my mind that i wanna be with you, i wanna have a future together, i want a home, a family together... thats all i think about when they asked me that question. but why are you proving me wrong...why are you making me rethink , that i am too naive.. maybe i am..

i need that boy in you to get out of its shell and be a man. why are you not acting and thinking like one..you should have long ago.. but why are you still not.. i dont get that sense of security anymore. i dont feel the spark nor romance anymore.. every few days or weeks, you make me think about the same thing, the same questions..am i the only one trying to make this relationship work cause you no longer give a shit? i am not a dog or your pet. you cant do this to me... i dont need reward from you, for studying..for going to school, stop treating me like a pet or a kid, when i need you to treat me like an adult and be an adult yourselve. why cant you do that...

2012-02-03T19:47:00.000+08:00

2012-02-01T15:54:00.003+08:00

White Chocolate Frappuccino.

Need this to perk me up and keep me going , while i am doing all these shitty assignment.

Was at such a low point in life just now, just feel like giving up on everything, dont have e motivation to go to school or study anymore. blaming myself for getting myself into this shit, throwing away money to make myself suffer and go through all these shits for what?? while i could already be like the rest of them out there with a stable job and monthly income, contributing to house expenses, spend whatever i want with my own money, without my mum constantly going at me for spending "her" money, that $200 bucks that is expect to keep me going every month with smrt and sbs that keep sucking my transport fares at a fast speed..

So i suppose, i can either study and work , struggling with both and facing tons of stress with my shitty assignments, or go to school twice a week and stay at home for e rest of the week to do my assignment, and rot so i dont spend money.dont feel like going back to that shitty job anymore. 4 hours of travelling,7 hours of work, earing peanuts and getting dead tired not from work, but from the travelling, its not worth it at all.wonder why i was so dumb to stay on for such a long time, when its contributing nothing to help me in my resume for my future career. So i guess, goodbye kc... for the time being...

Just need to get through with these shitty assignments and my ER test thats coming up in another couple of week before i can do anything else. Shall reward myself with a shopping spree of $100 after i am done with all these. Very nice bf had offered to top up another $50 for my shopping spree,but no thanks bby. :] appreciate your kindness! its the thoughts that count afterall.

2012-01-30T21:47:00.002+08:00

Dear lord, please give me the motivation to excel in my studies.

Please give me the strength that i need to push myself to go to school, give me the courage to believe in myself,that i can be more than what i am now. give me the concentration i need to complete my assignment and meet my deadline.I feel like i lost all hope in myself.Sigh.

2012-01-27T15:22:00.000+08:00

♥

2012-01-24T13:07:00.003+08:00

happy lunar new year! my hair looks horrible. oh gosh.

waiting for mum's friend to leave so we can go visit nai nai..

2012-01-22T14:34:00.002+08:00

might just do this for cny tomorrow :)Love it!

2012-01-21T23:03:00.001+08:00

Went to the temple in the morning with daddy and brother to pay respect to grandpa. The crowd is horrible, and people even make a scene when they are told to burn the incense paper at another station cause the thing is heating up. Tsk. uncooperative people.Later met bf in the afternoon for a movie. Jack and Jill. Not bad. pretty funny. Later headed home and went to grandma house with family for dinner.

2 more days till cny. having reunion dinner with xiao jiu and some relatives 2mr for a change. Pretty happy about that, but not that excited compared to all the previous years. Expanding my heels in progress, so it wont hurt so much when i wear it during cny.

cny mood, please come. i wanna enjoy my cny... goodies, steamboat, red packet, drinks, mandrain oranges and dressing up..why am i not feeling it this year...

and ohh, during dinner just now, while the family and me were eating, leo was constantly staring at the direction of e toilet which he never ever did before. noramlly he will be hiding under the dinning table if not looking at us enjoying our dinner, but this time, he just constantly stare and tilted his head at the direction of the toilet as if "Someone" was there.. so we were all saying that maybe grandpa came back to visit us or have dinner.. i miss grandpa. its been 10 mths...

2012-01-20T23:07:00.002+08:00

called my dog a monkey cuz he look like one after his haircut and my mum call me an idiot for calling him a monkey. wow mum.. thanks.i cant call my dog a monkey but you as my mum can call your daughter an idiot.should i give up my room to the dog now,mum? and i'd go sleep on the floor?? thanks a lot mum, i am so pissed,i dont even wanna talk to you...

2012-01-19T20:20:00.000+08:00

2012-01-18T21:55:00.002+08:00

Love had a few hours off from camp, thus we met for dinner at tanjong pagar. Kind of in e mid way for both of us since he's coming from cck while me from home. Later he send me till kallang and he headed off to meet his campmates to go back to camp.an hour plus two, thats how little time we had to see each other today, i cant wait for 3 June till he ord. June this year would be a great month. Him ord-ing, our 3yrs anniversary and my 21st birthday.

Honestly, my life would suck without you <3

2012-01-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

Thahira and Xinyi 's 21st Belated Birthday Celebration

Great meet up. Miss those girls and their nonsense.

Hope they like all their presents! :)

2012-01-16T13:45:00.001+08:00

Dyed my hair yesterday.

2012-01-16T00:24:00.002+08:00

Met up with bf yesterday afternoon to have lunch and walked around a little. he almost gave me a heartattack by calling me and telling me that he cant move and need to go to cgh.make me rush to tampines to look for him!lucky he was alright. scare me! -.-

later went to meet uncle and cousins to bedok to do our hair, but we got there too late and there wasnt enuff time for me to dye my hair. Sad! in the end only cousin got his hair dyed while the rest of us got ours cut. Went to dinner after that at some thai "restaurant" which uncle frnd at the salon recommend.

uncle and cousins ordered pad thai

this chicken is crazily awesome.

tom yum soup. really nice also recommended by the people at the salon :)

CNY in a week. :)

2012-01-14T22:43:00.000+08:00

7 Jan. Saturday. Korean BBQ with them.

2012-01-13T16:55:00.002+08:00

Unit Status* Mark Grade
Organisational Theory and Behaviour (BUS223) COMPLETED 64 C

Workplace Law (BUS228) COMPLETED 61 C

Knowledge and Organisational Learning (BUS378) COMPLETED 70 D

Results are finally out. Relief when i saw my results although 1 barely hit C and another barely just hit a D but at least its better than nothing at all :) Not bad for the first sem, hope this sem i can do better. Happy for meow meow and other classmates that did well too. Oh yeah! :D

Been coughin like hell, suppose to meet bf later but i dont think i should go out when i cough like every 5 seconds which makes my throat burn and hurts. Sigh. CNY in a week. really hope i get better soon. The medication doesnt seem to be working.. Oh well.. :(

2012-01-09T21:04:00.004+08:00

My 2012 Resolution

I've been setting resoulutions every year telling myself that i'll do this , i'll do that, but rarely i'll be able to do any stuff thats on my list cause i'll forget what my resolution is eventually, thus 3 simple resoultion for the new year.

1. Study Hard, try my best and get my degree at the end of the year.
2.Save up and go for another holiday with friends

3.Go for a short getaway with Love.

2012 marks a new chapter to a couple of stuff. First off, i'll get my degree this year if everything goes well, which means the start of my working life too. Hopefully i'll be able to get a steady job. Not looking for a high salary since i have zero experience. gosh.. shall slowly learn and then move on to a better opportunity if theres any.Next, my 21st birthday. seems like none of the darlings are having major celebrations or any sorts of stuff. Haven thought about mine yet though, all i know is i really wanna go for a holiday instead with friends or love.

First day of the new trimester today. Employee Relation, it seems a little more interesting and perhaps a little simpler than workplace law since its not about australian law anymore. Hopefully, i'll be focused and motivated enough. Adrian said that results will be out this week, cant wait to see how i did. I hope it wont be that bad though.

And oh, why does wrapping paper cost so much now??

2012-01-09T21:01:00.009+08:00

Kuala Lumpur Trip , 05 Jan 2012,Bukit bintang : Day 3

Woke up early in the morning like usual and headed downstairs for breakfast.

mine

sara's and her love for grilled tomatoes

Nora's hearty portion

pretty sunny side up

Our Ah Neo.

Headed back to sungei wang for the last time since we had to board the bus at 230pm.Walked around a little more and bought another bag. Hehe. bag loverrrrr. <3

and headed to T-bowl for lunch and wifi! :D

toilet bowls

Happy nora

we choose to seat at the section with all the squatting ones.A little weird and gross but what an experience :D

Nora's constipation face. hahahs

my drink

sara and her shabu shabu

nora's crispy noodle.

mine. dont really like it. little topping and alot of rice. end up only eating the topping.

nora's ice cream which is super delicious. if i know, i would have just ordered this. the ice cream just instantly melts in your mouth and its super super super super nice unlike the normal kind of ice cream! definetly recommend it.

Later ,we boarded the coach at 2.30pm and finally reached singapore at around 8pm

All the tibits which i bought. Half distributed. the tau sa pia is totally awesome. regret buying only 1 box. :( shall buy more next time.

my bags!

And my clothings!

-End of Day 3, KL trip.-

2012-01-07T15:55:00.010+08:00

Kuala Lumpur ,04 Jan 2012, Bukit Bintang:Day 2

The best thing about holidays which i absolutely love the most is the breakfast buffet spread every morning. the scramble eggs and everything. even had bread pudding that morning! although the food is not superb , its still great:)

After a hearty breakfast, got back to the hotel room and got ready to go out. these two xiaojie abit siao arh. ate so many eggs in just 1 day. like 5-6/ person. gosh! luckily for me, i ate 1 only :)

nora enjoying her cha ye dan.

Headed to pavilion to take a walk since sara was supposed to meet her friend for lunch, but in the friend her friend did not turn up at all due to some stuff..

having this bear showcase infront of the pavilion. bears of different country.

very tourist like nora.

The singapore bear. our first reaction was why so ugly, and this auntie beside us got offended and said in a very unhappy tone that she think that singapore one is the nicest. Most lilkely she's singaporean also lah. and then sara went to ask her " are you singaporean?" and she ignored her and walked away! how rude. tsk tsk. so easily offended by such little thing. different people different perspective wad!

Singaporeans with Singapore bear

very tourist us

nora bought this moccha with red bean combination ice cream in tokyo street

while i bought a crepe to share since it looks nice. BUT its not nice at all!!! the crepe is so soft and tasteless.. and the pic showed that theres suppose to be 3 pcs of beef but theres only 1.. and perhaps its the black pepper sauce that bring the nasty taste to a whole new level. worst 9.90RM spend! should have stick with the dessert kind.

Went to Grandmama's to have lunch next. ordered the chicken mushroom rice.

nora and her super gigantic bowl of fish head bee hoon!!! and she finished the whole freaking bowl!!!

Went to the supermarket and bought even more stuff. hur hur.

My addiction to supermarket, they know.

Went back to the hotel to take a rest and put our stuff before heading out again.

nora's

sara's

Mine. Opps!

sara and her char ye dan

Headed to another mall in the evening. Gosh 10 gigantic levels and we didnt even finish walking.End of the day i bought like 1 bag and 3 tops.

Dinner at nando's. Service was horrible. we went in around 9+ and the place was really quiet. with just a few tables occupied and all the sofa seats like around 10 of them were empty. so we requested for the sofa seats and they insist that its for 6 people and more when the place is not even pack at all and refused to give us the seat. and judging by the time, there wont be larger crowd coming in at all! tsk. bad service. bad experience. wont be heading back to nando's be it singapore, kl or any other place.Once is an experience and a bad one i can say.

Headed back to the hotel to enjoy our night view, chit chat and went to bed at 2+.

-End of day 2-

2012-01-06T17:33:00.010+08:00

Kuala Lumpur, Bukit Bintang,Capitol Hotel :Day 1

Went for a short getaway with sara and nora darling on tuesday and came back yesterday evening. Decided on capitol hotel since sara highly recommended it and she was our "tourguide" for the 3 days trip:)
Nora darling's dad gave us a ride to golden mile complex on tuesday morning for our coach ride and thats the start of our 6 hours journey. so grateful that i didnt feel giddy or feel like vomitting. Stopped at yong peng mid way for a 30 mins break.

the two of them shared a bowl of RM 7, fishball noodle that sara highly recommend again. lol.

while i just bought a portion of french fries which cost RM4 to eat on the coach.

after another 2 hour plus of coach ride we finally reached capitol hotel. all the malls were within good walking distance. while sungei wang was just across our hotel.

had an additional bed send up in the evening and all 3 of us had very comfy and big space to sleep in :)

rested for a while and head out. First stop, sungei wang! :)
went to get lunch first since all of us were hungry. went to this indonesia place and ordered some food to share.

me and nora's happy soda and sara's avocado thingy

this beef soup is crazily awesome.will definetly go back for it again on my next trip.

went to walk around and later head to this taiwan cafe for some food again.

nora ordered assorted shaved ice

my yam milk tea.not really nice. not much of the yam taste

sara ordered this. not bad.

the very gorgeous view we had from our hotel room. Miss it!

fell terribly sick, but thank goodness for the two of them that keep lookin out for me.
felt better the next morning after medication and a good night sleep

-End of Day 1-

2011-12-31T14:03:00.004+08:00

2011-12-29T20:13:00.002+08:00

I am ready to go for my holiday!!!!!
Going to the zoo tomorrow! So excited loh!!

2011-12-27T21:57:00.002+08:00

I wish my mum has as replica of herself to deal with and talk to everyday so she will understand what kind of emotions is building inside me every second when i have to start a conversation with her, so she will finally know what a difficult person she is.

why is she making a big fuss when my a/c is short of a thousand bucks in the period of like what 4 years? is spending an average of $250 a year for her very scary and a big deal? dont get it. why have to make a big fuss out of small shits. find unnecessary problems and meaningless arguments.she thinks that i can survive on that little allowance she gives me every month which tally to $4 a day which is freaking pathetic, that is why i force myself to go to work and spend money on stuff that i want with money that i earn, not taken from her. i see that i at least have a X digit while my bro is left with a pathetic sum of x digit and yet i get the shits? seriously mum?

i am 20 yet i dont have the kind of freedom i ought to have and still being treated like a kid under her grips, which makes me end up like this today. who else can i blame , if it isnt her?scared of this, scared of that.this one cannot, that one cannot.Argh! enough mum! ENOUGH!! let go of all your possesive thoughts and stuff!

2011-12-24T23:53:00.005+08:00

Xmas present from sara darling and joey. Just in time :D my earpiece just spoil!

Love this picture

Merry Christmas Everyone!!! :D

2011-12-24T00:52:00.005+08:00

Went over to bf's place in the morning and he made shepard pie :) and we had e bottle of moscato he bought when he came back from aussie.

Evening, head to ws to meet nora and sara to get ingredients for steamboat with the rest of the darlings. so glad that they are able to make it.:)had fun preparing the food ,chitchat and catch up :) Love times like this <3

Our presents :)

Zhixian darling got mine.

nora darling got xinyi's

HAHAHA and xinyi got calista's! leopard printz!! lol

Calista and zhixian

Love these girls <3

Merry Xmas in advance Darlings! :D

2011-12-22T22:40:00.002+08:00

Finally satisfy my craving today.Yummy :)

2011-12-22T00:53:00.002+08:00

2011-12-21T00:58:00.002+08:00

Nothing much to update recently.Its the holidays, been busy working and finally have the time to have some me time to myself, catching up with my dramas,moving from one drama to another. Looking forward to this coming friday. Xmas gathering with darlings at calista's place. gonna have steamboat and Gift Exchange. Hope to take some good photos on that day. this week is really a week to get even fatter. oh damm. Had a seafood grill and steamboat at home today with the family cause its mum's birthday.and dad went to giant even before me and bro woke up to get all the ingredients himself and he fixed the whole dinner himself.. theres crabs,prawns,salmon and lots of clams.. so much leftover that we are having a second round for dinner tomorrow.but dad and mum gave up eating pretty fast, leaving me and brother to finish up most of the food.hah.

this week is a good week. looking forward to christmas. cant wait! :) awesome.
PRESENTSSSSS and YUMMY FOOD!!!! :D

2011-12-12T23:09:00.004+08:00

Korean BBQ with bf last saturday to celebrate our 30th month in advance.:)

Swensen dinner with calista and sara darling a couple of weeks back.

Its the 12th again. which means today is the 30th month since we've been together. 2.5 years, thats not really long, but not really that a short time either. <3 :)

2011-12-08T01:49:00.002+08:00

i just read you blog,i dont know if you 'll even read this or when will you even see this, but i really wish that you'll just let go. why are you suffering like this? why must he be the one to let you go? why cant you let him go? this is way too much for someone like you to take on, why are you carrying on such a burden for such a jackass like him. why wouldnt you believe everyone of us when we told you that you deserve better.. you dont have to live your life like this. you could be happy just like every other couple of every other single person out there, why wouldnt you give yourselve a chance to feel and embrace happiness.. you know what you;re doing and going through hurt so many of us, none of us wanna see you like this my dear girl, please have the courage to let go. love aint everything. love wont feed you. love wont make you survive when you have nothing. you cant survive in this world based on love alone, do you understand that. let go, embrace your life, do the right thing.i know you can do better than this. i have so much trust in you. i really hope you know i am talking about you,i dont wish to write any names here, i cherish our friendship all these years, and i do not wish to see you suffer like this anymore. please just let go, you wont be alone. it will hurt like fuck, but we are here for you, i am here for you 24/7 ..please stop torturing yourself anymore...

why are there so many jackass around. why wont people treasure the relationship that they have. friends around me are going through shits like this, members among the family are going through this shit either. Jackass.seriously... if you wanna die, go further away to die, leave your family, my cousins and my auntie alone. call yourselve a man, you think you have the rights to even negotiate for a settlement? you're in your fucking mind to think that my auntie will give you a single cent after everything. how much money have you took from her throughout all these years. you fucking gambler. my cousin is only 17 and he work only once a week just for extra allowance, just that little money and you want that from him... this shows how desperate you are.. just a fucking hopeless case. my cousins are old enough to take care of themselve. my auntie will be strong enough to be independent. dont even try to sweettalk her into giving in to you again.. my auntie has been supporting the family, paying off your fucking gambling debts. you dont even support your own children and you even took money from them. what kind of father are you? no wonder your son say that he dont have a father anymore.

i honestly despise you..

fucking son of the bitches.. why are there so many people like this out there. Love? seriously? is this call love? see what love leads one to. my dear friend, this is a perfect example to show you, what love can lead you to.. find someone that deserve your love, and treats you with respect.. not someone that treats you like dirt and ruin your life..let go before its too late..

2011-12-04T02:12:00.002+08:00

Okay, OTB paper was shyt especially section b. hope i can score in the mcq though, just praying for a pass or even better a credit if possible for the paper.

Workplace law paper in another 7 hours. I just set my alarm and i have to get up in like another 4.5 hours.

Sara darling, Nora darling and I are going KL for a short trip in early jan. Short getaway, need a break from school and everything. Cant wait for it. Hope its not another "planning only" thing and we are really really going..seems like it.Shall start planning after my finaly paper on Wednesday. Hope workplace law doesnt suck so badly.

Okay, i still have stuff to study, and i dont think i can head to bed anytime soon for the next 30 mins, and i think, the big cup of coffee that i drank is finally taking effective ,NOW, like wtf. after struggling to memorise 12 chapters of law at one go, i dont even know whats in my brain and whats not. i am scared of going to sleep and wake up with everything that i struggle so hard to memorise gone.i really wish to get a D for 1 of these 3 units, but it doesnt seem that i could, at least a credit for workplace law please, if not i think my effort for this past 12 hours will be wasted. Sigh. Oh my...

Alright, its 2.17 AM now, time to head back to my studies, i think i'll just go sleep at xiaojiu house after i finish my paper tomorrow.Think i need a shyt load of concealer to cover my dark eye circles tomorrow :(

Good thing to look forward to after the paper tomorrow, i got a special delivery of potato salad by bf. ^.^ and after workplace law, down with 2, 1 more paper to go till FREEDOM!!! FOR a month :D

2011-12-02T21:46:00.003+08:00

LESS THAN 12 HOURS TILL OTB FINALS..

WISH ME LUCK FOR THE 3 HOURS PAPER WHICH IS GONNA MAKE MY BUTT SORE.

I AM SCARED. GOD DAMM IT. :(

2011-12-01T17:03:00.003+08:00

Under so much pressure and so much stress now. Exams are really screwing me over. Its making me regret pursuing a degree, its making me rethink if i should continue my studies, its dumb of me to think of these when school already started for a trimester, but the stress is really suffocating me. nothing seems to get inside my head, nothing. i cant seem to focus and i am not motivated at all.

I expect you to be understanding during this period of time, but why must you be such an ass? why cant you just try to understand what i am going through? i know its hard that you finally have your off days, i know you want my company but i cant, and i am trying to accompany you as much as i can already, but why cant you just understand what kind of shit i am going through now. whats 1 week of loneliness and boredom compared to 6 weeks that i went through because of you. why act like such a baby during this period of time. also not i want one right? i didnt ask for my exams to clash with your offdays did i?

i told you're a majpr distraction to me, thats why i didnt want you to be around, thats why i couldnt just meet up with you for a couple of hours cause i know it aint enough for me.. i need you to stop spamming me with calls, stop trying to control me when i am facing so much pressure, i didnt mean to be harsh but why cant you just understand. why attitude me when you know this isnt what i want at all but i really got no choice..

if you dont understand and you wanna be pissed then just go ahead alright, theres nothing i can do about it.

2011-11-27T01:42:00.004+08:00

Boyfriend came back early yesterday morning.Met up with him before school and after school. went to have some local food at bedok centre hawker,since he's missing those food like crazy. Ate alot, gosh and headed back early since he's having jetlag.hahas.

Met up with him this afternoon and went to watch happy feet 2. Gosh, the movie is not super nice but the characters inside are so cute. especially "eric", the little penguin. >.< ,plus me and boyfriend went to buy mcnuggets and smuggle it into the theater since its 1 for 1, so we ate quite a lot of nuggets, later headed to expo and went to buy some stuff. managed to buy a crocodile polo shirt for dad for christmas, later head to the airport to have aston and head back to ws popular to replenish my pens and later home sweet home.

love the time that we spend together ever since he's back. i love how we just chat and catch up like best friends,talking about everything. miss him so much, and he's been really sweet and nice to me.hope this goes on and on and on. received my early christmas present from him!:) a bit too early but he got me a wallet and fragrance from victoria secret. thank you love :) but his bad habit is still there, no sense of puntuality.tsktsk.

Ah, feel like getting a pretty organiser/planner.. and Big cosmetic bag to store all my make up items. wanna go shopping so badly. get new clothes, bag,shoes etc. but first, gotto get pass exams.ahh.jiayou jiayou

2011-11-23T19:52:00.004+08:00

Went to kiseki lunch buffet with Nora darling. had a great meal with great company ^^ love the time that we spend together, hanging out. but got to go off earlier to go to mum's office to fetch leo home, so had to end our day early. darling was like " wah, i am in heaven" when she started eating, easily satisfied girl! ahahs, but i think twice is enough for this place, time to start seeking good food else where for other occassions. was raining after our meal, so we were both drenched and she was saying"faster, use something to cover your head, later you sick again!" hahas, so sweet ah she. :) went to fareast for a little while before heading off, and darling accompanied me to mum's office to fetch leo home.

daddy was admitted to the hospital yesterday morning. saw mum's text when i woke up and had a shock when she said dad had a heart attack. scare the hell out of me, go to school also cannot concentrate. went to see him last night and glad that he's alright.relief. he just did a bypass surgery this afternoon, haven got a chance to see him yet cause other aunties and uncles are there visiting him. mum said that daddy is like a dragon now. lol. if everything goes well, he can come home tomorrow. but he gotto go back to the hospital 2 weeks later for another bypass surgery. 3 vessels block!!! daddy still had the nerve to say that he wanna eat oyster omelette or nasi lemak when mummy ask him wad he want for dinner tonight. but guess he cant eat after the surgery. rest well daddy.

that fellow is coming back in 2 days! :)

2011-11-21T14:33:00.003+08:00

Sakura charcoal grilled & shabu shabu with cousins, xiaojiu,zhixiong and xiaoxu.

Had a hearty dinner with them on saturday night. too bad the rest of the cousins arnt there, if not i am sure we'll have a even better time. Happy times always past so fast!:)

2011-11-19T00:23:00.003+08:00

Finish school early today and met nora for dinner at whitesand.Fish Manhattan for dinner. Darling bought the vouchers from groupon earlier on so we had a 2 person serving platter, other than that, we also ordered mushrooms as sides since they were having 50% off plus another 2 serving of garlic rice. Had a very filling and satisfied dinner :D

Later bought a horrible -.- cup of taiwan milk tea and we walked to whitesand. bought movie tickets for 2359 and went to check chalet pricing..wonder if the rest would be interested in having a chalet for new year or wad. Movie seem scary at first, but then after the whole movie, it just seems realli stupid , no link and no logic at all. Later walk home, chit chat, went to the pasar malam and bought some muah chee and vegetarian pizza home :)

Going to school tomorrow for KOL revision class, xiaojiu say we are going to punggol sakura at night.yay. looking forward to spend time with xiaojiu, cousins,zhixiong and xiaoxu. :)

2011-11-17T18:42:00.005+08:00

I know i've said this like a thousand times and xiaojiu already said that i am crazy about going overseas, but i miss phuket so freaking much. perhaps its the time spend with the 3 girls, perhaps its a different country, its just a special period of time that we had together. Till now i still think that its such a waste that the other girls couldnt join us. moreover its our first trip after knowing each other for so many years. i went through my blog archives and realised that i dont have any posts or pictures , perhaps i did but i overlooked it but i just miss that trip so freaking much that i look at pictures of it like every other few weeks, thinking about it and missing it :(

A couple of photos out of the thousand over photos that we took. unfortunately, i lost all the photographs and video from the queen's side when my old laptop crash.gonna get it from her when i get my hardisk later.

Sleepless night,cam whoring while waiting for the time that seems to pass so freaking slow, to go to the airport to meet nora darling since she cant sleepover. her first time going overseas, so i guess her parents want her with them :)

At the airport! after checking in our luggage. calista's luggage like hide dead body inside like that. before go already 10+ kg. gosh, compared to ours which are all so light.

Our expensive breakfast while waiting for our flight to phuket.kaya toast, hot macaroni and hot milo. :)

Touching down on phuket soon. Amazing view.

Our own little private pool, which we didnt really spend a lot of time on. a little sad cause we didnt really explore the facilities within the resorts. all pack with our 2 days activities outside and our shopping trips..didnt even get to enjoy the beach at phuket other than the few that we stayed for a little during our activities. Our comfy apartment below.

pardon the thick thighs :/

amazing thai food and comfy restaurant. service were really great. waitress are all so friendly

We went to the Koh Phanak Sail Caves and Hongs tour, and explore a number of caves

Central Festival, Phuket Town,Sunset & PhongPhang Seafood

people say that there aint much shopping available at phuket but look at the shitload of stuff we bought, especially bags. the 4 of us bought like 17 bags i think. horrible us -.-

while waiting for our flight back to Singapore :(

Beach Club,Cave tours,Central Festival, Phuket Town,Sunset & PhongPhang Seafood,phiphi island and snorkeling. A really enjoyable 5d4n :)

All the attention and time we spend on looking for the accommodation,flights and everything. buying necessities to counting down for the trip and having a sleepover at my place but end up being too excited to sleep to finally leaving my place,getting on a cab with a chatty driver and to the airport. the most amazing feeling ever is to step into the custom, its like stepping into a whole new different atmopshere and away from the rest of the people. its just freaking amazing.Moreover, its not always that mum agree to let me go travel with my friends. i am really looking forward to our next trip no matter where it is. but i definitely love the idea of taiwan or hongkong, no way of going to bangkok due to the conditions there..

I love travelling more than i can ever say, its over exaggerated but i really super super love love love travelling. i really wish i have the guts and the abilities to go backpacking, grab a couple of clothes, passport, book an air ticket and just go.or have a close friend thats super spontaneous. i hate the progress of waiting for people that wants to go, deciding on an available time and period where everyone can go having to delay and delay and decide on stupid little details and then when nobody mention anythings, everyone just forgets about it. i absolutely hate it..i really wish that there will be a chance in my life where i will have the ability to just go travel for a month or so without any burden of work,studies or anything, to a couple of different countries.i am looking forward to going on a short getaway with love, hoping that my mum will agree by that time. *Cross finger*.

So xiao jiu, i know you say i am crazy, but i really am crazy about travelling okay. crazy till the extent of thinking about it almost day and night. looking at all the getaway disounts available on groupon,deals and outlets. i am going mad already. so can someone please grant me my wish of going travelling?pretty please :( i know its hard to go with cousins and xiaojiu due to xiaohei and all our different schedules and thats the reason why i am so dying to go travel before i have any other work commitments when i finish my studies :(Sigh.

2011-11-15T21:16:00.001+08:00

"The Hardest Thing" - Tyler Ward
Came across this song today, and i love it.>"Just turn around,come back because your smile is overdue And I miss You"

Just 10 more days and he's coming back like finally after 6 weeks. its been so long and i think i am already used to life without him. no longer missing them till that extreme, no longer have the need to see him on skype or listen to his voice nor receiving his email daily. wonder if thats good or bad, but i guess i am kinda more independent now. and if i could choose, i rather he be back by my side with me of course.however, mum dont let me go to the airport to fetch him when i told her he be back at 5am. i know she thinks its redundant and all,but i dont think thats for her to decide lor. i am already 20, and she's still trying to control all these uneccessary stuff, dont know want to control till when.Argh. hopefull, next year, bf and me will be able to go taiwan for our 3rd year anniversary without her interferring so much. always think of bad stuff, scared of this scared of that. what era already. want pregnant long time pregnant liao, still wait till we go overseas then get myself pregnant meh?as if those girls that got pregnant got pregnant only when they are overseas with their boyfriends hur?? funny. Argh. what nonsense. rather than forcing me to lie that i am going with my friends then let me go , also dont want let me be honest with her and tell her i going with him? like freaking uncessary. nothing wrong want me to lie and find trouble meh?

So, after all those nonsense,quarrels and argument, xiao jiu's friend ,xiao xu is finally here. cousins and me followed xiao jiu to the airport last saturday to fetch him. I think xiao jiu seems a bit happier now, having another friend staying with him to accompany him.hope things will go smoothly and he will work hard and not xiao jiu down, after what xiao jiu went through for him. i think zhixiong seems much more friendly and approachable compared to xiao xu. perhaps they came from different provinces and have different mindset... anyway, no matter what. hope things wont change like what joey told me.. hope that everything would be fine like the past. me and cousins would all still be able to hang out with xiaojiu and xiao xu would work hard and learn from xiao jiu.

Went to the polyclinic and was there close to 2.5 hours.the burse said that the polyclinic is already full but asked if i got childhood asthma a not, so they send me to the 2nd floor for some test for lungs to see if i have asthma a not but the nurse kept saying that they cant hear my breathing, then ask doctor to come listen,doctor also cannot ,so make me go through some treatment, hoping that it'll be better, but still e same. so went through 2nd test and STILL the same. got a P number and i guess that means i got higher priority against a lot of other people sitting outside. nurse was very approachable and friendly though. Finally saw the doctor and she said she'll have to call for the ambulance and send me to the hospital, but i asked her if i can choose not to go a not, so she gave me a standby referral letter and said that if things dont get better at night or this morning i have to go to the hospital straight.

i think i am feeling a little better after the medication, but the symptoms are still there though, the phlegm, asthma and stuff. hope it gets better soon.

On another note, my itouch accessories are already here.Not bad :) my hot pink and limegreen which dont look like limegreen (only thing i am not happy with) itouch cover, screen protectors and the charging cable. looking forward to receiving my second batch of items from asos soon :)

2011-11-13T22:29:00.001+08:00

Fever, Cough,flu,sorethroat &asthma.

wont be going to work tomorrow, might be going to the doctor if i still dont feel better.

just pop a shitload of medicine and 2 puff of inhaler, last night was hell. seriously hell. Sigh

Craving for siew mai ;(

2011-11-12T02:27:00.001+08:00

Happy 29th months kafaz lee jenn ming! :D

i miss you , just 2 more weeks and you'll finally be back. looking forward to the 25th.

Love you :)

Sick for these past 2 days, sudden down with cough, flu,sorethroat and a bit of fever.

Hope things get better soon.

2011-11-10T13:58:00.002+08:00

Been keeping myself busy for the past week alternating between school and work.

its just saddening to see how so many parents are compulsive gamblers and they would just leave their kids with us for hours or their helpers outside Kc and just wait for their returns.Shouldnt they prioritize whats important and whats not especially when they are already parents? its just sad. really... looking at the kids picking up all the bad habits and everything like that, without proper upbringing.. if you wanna have a child, at least have the responsibility to raise your child the right way. if you say you be back in 2 hours to pick your child, be back in 2 hours instead of 6 hours later. some even refused to come back for their child even after a number of calls being made to them telling them their child is asking for them, their child is hungry, their child ran out of diaper already. if you wanna leave your child there at least make sure that they have the necessary stuff right? what do you expect your child to eat?? you dont bring diaper what you expect us to do? sometimes, this job just makes me feel like we are under-paid maids.honestly.we look after the children, clean up after the child,wipe their ass if they dont know how to, change their diaper, get them food, feed them, teach them crafts,clean up all their messes, they throw toys all over the places and we have to pick it up, after they go off we have to sanitize the place.. if we are not underpaid maids then what are we???

Argh, not going back to work for the next couple of weeks. exams in 23 days. pretty fast and one trimester is over just like that. i should really start preparing for exams...

2011-11-10T01:05:00.002+08:00

Almost got knocked down by lorries twice consecutively today.

Stupid lorries cant slow down when its a turn , idiot shit.

what a bad place to die, if something really happen..

2011-11-04T21:32:00.002+08:00

hehe. arnt they cute!! new kittens to "Amy" lol. thats what my neighbour call her.even manage to capture a photo of the 3 of them together, no idea whether its a a boy or girl though, but they are so adorable :D

Exactly 3 more weeks left till he's back :)

2011-11-03T00:10:00.004+08:00

Had school in the afternoon and sara came to pick me up from school and really, she was waiting outside the lift at school :) thanks babe.Belated Birthday celebration for rachel mei and also a double celebration for thahira's return. so glad to see them after such a long time. Dinner, chit chat plus hang out a little and initially wanted to go ws for coffee, but changed out mind since its getting late and most of us had to work in the morning. and thahira drove us home. thanks thahira for the ride home, and she's such a good and smooth driver. so much better compared to my mum, not the lease car sick at all.no matter what, a good meet up :)

Alright, tempted to get my license next year, even though i am kind of scared.

2011-11-02T23:09:00.002+08:00

Learn about something today, and it was so heartbreaking.

i'll kill this guy if he's infront of me. a guy can cheat,lie and whatso ever, but the worst thing is to hit a girl. How could you even bear to hit her, who do you think you are to hit her and who give u the right to do so. We tried to advice her to get out of this relationship cause we really think she deserve better. there should be no hesitation when a guy starts to be abusive towards you. dont think about hoping that he'll change, if theres once, theres always a second time. its was just toally heartbreaking to learn about this,all we could do is to advice her, and i hope she'll really sort out her thinking soon. This kind of guy is just the worst piece of shit ever on earth, i am sorry to say this but its the truth. Dont you dare fucking lay your hands on her ever again,if you love her, you wouldnt even lay your hands on her in the first place.You fucking son of a bitch.

2011-11-02T01:09:00.002+08:00

Forgot that grandma was coming over to stay tonight, and all i had in mind on my way home from work is to get back home, shower and lie on my comfy bed to watch my dramas. oh well, now i am lying on a mattress in the guest room and i doubt i'll be able to sleep well tonight. even thought its home, but just feels different.

Mum said and did some stuff which upset me again,

i dont understand why she have to do that. i really dont. Sigh.

Oh a good note, my masks are here :) cant wait to try it, perhaps on friday.

Another day down, another day closer to love returning, haven had the chance to skype with him this couple of days, hope i have e chance soon.I miss him.

Still hook on the book, love it ,so far so good. cant wait to finish it :)

2011-11-01T02:00:00.002+08:00

Started on a new book today "When i first saw you" by Angie Daniels :)

bought it a couple of months back at a bookflea at downtown and and finally got the chance to read it. Love it so far. I miss all the romance and everything, plus love aint really that romantic kind of guy. Sigh.. occasional romance are really nice, i wish sometimes love would make an effort to be a little more romantic.

Finally bought some stuff at asos.

excited. looking forward to receiving it. plus my masks and my itouch accessories..woohoo :)

gonna go sleep now. good thing about working afternoon shift, its close to 3am but i can still sleep for 8.5 hours before i head to work :D

24 more days to go..

2011-10-28T23:59:00.007+08:00

Life is so dull right now, just like my room!

Just have the great urge to have my own place so that i could decorate my own house and my own room, coming back to a home like that would feel great rather than a boring room with 4 walls.

Love the big bulky bed and i want one just that in my room!with the colour combination of black , white and pink :)

the big wall behind my bed would be wallstickers like this covering the whole wall or i would paint it grey/black. have orange dim lights in the room making it real cozy!

Having my own dressing table/make up corner with tons of make up brushes,palettes etc.

Having colourful pop art canvas paintings hang on my walls

on the same wall would be a big bulletin board fill with little notes and polaroids,pictures etc

having a table like this at the side to do my work, use my lappy

sitting on a nice and soft carpet/rug with big fluffy cushions that i could hug , lean on
and day dream.. maybe a little tv flat screen tv on the wall..

Having a folding door closet filled with lots of pretty clothes,shoes and bags!!!

Sigh. when will i ever get my dream room???

;(

2011-10-28T21:19:00.005+08:00

Katy Perry! i love her new song "The one that got away"

I love all her songs as well as her unique voice. another top favourite currently is hummingbird heartbeat! :)She's so pretty!! :D

Went to school today, finally submitted my KOL assignment. its worth a freaking 40%.hopefully i can score a decent grade on that so i wont have to stress so much for my finals. My wish is that i can hopefull get a Credit for all my 3 modules or better a Distinction :)

Still left with like 1.5 more chapter of workplace law to go. feeling really tired but hopefully i can get as much work done possible tonight. had a long day in school, after school went to get some groceries and met nora darling at the interchange! so happy to see a familiar face after such a long day in school. :) cant wait to see the rest next wednesday.Got to skype with love for like 20 mins just now. :)

Alright, better head back to my studies. Goodnight all.

2011-10-28T00:26:00.003+08:00

Just blog about it yesterday and today i saw this on Facebook. how true.

when i saw this i was on skype with him and i asked him to go see and told him that this picture is just like us. He agreed too! Hah! :D

Just ordered some stuff from taobao and some mask. Anticipating for it to arrive :D

Workplace law test is in 2 days and i am so scared of it.started on my study notes yesterday but have yet to memorise anything. hope i can make it in time.another 2 chapter of study notes 2mr night and i have saturday to memorise as well shit as i can.Argh! i dont want sunday to come. damm it.But i think i am going to have a tougher time with KOL for the finals. its just so tough. Sigh.

Since he's not around, i make sure my schedule is packed so that i wont have too much time to laze around at home ,missing him being pathetic. Next week schedule is filled with work and school and a dinner with the girls :) i forgort to mention but our thahira we went MIA in india for like 5 months is finally back! Cant wait to see her and the rest of the darlings! :)

28 more days till he's back! :)

Speaking about that, its been 2 months ever since i started school. time do pass kinda fast huh.. cant wait to finish this degree and hopefully everything goes well. Finish school,quit Kids Club and join darlings in the working world.A part of me still have that little wish to teach but then its kinda hard, dont want this degree to go to waste. oh well.. school later.Long day again and hopefully to catch him on skype when i reach home after school. thats the only thing i look forward to nowadays...

2011-10-27T01:39:00.002+08:00

"Hold me 'til the sky is clear and whisper words of love right into my ear"

"iloveyousomuch"

these are not words that i often to to hear or receive from him. but i did today, and naturally, i cant stop smiling when i saw it. even though he's not here and i dont get to hear his voice. but i do get to see him on my screen , him over at aussie and me here. thats more than enough... feel like our feelings just got deeper towards each other for this past 10 days, when he's here theres always constant quarrels and arguments,but theres not a single argument or quarrel we had for this past 10 days. whenever we get the chance to see each other on skype or talk to each other over the phone, all we do is to treasure every minute and every second that we could, to see and talk to each other , to enjoy each other's company.theres sadness,tears,happiness and smiles.. thats what makes us stronger i believe.i definitely treasure this relationship and him much more than ever and its only when he's gone that i realised how much he meant to me....

i miss you,love. just 29 more days...

2011-10-25T00:24:00.002+08:00

Made sushi with Joey on sunday.

Turns out great. Looking forward to making it myself at home in future. :D

I thought that i'll get used to life without him as time past, but 8 days seems like 80days.It sound stupid and crazy but i just miss him so much that it hurts. Well.. Crazy, Stupid, Love. And the worst thing is he lost his phone at aussie. Sigh. got mad at first with him for a bit when he told me but then when i saw that he was so upset, i just gave in and comfort him instead.Sigh, i just want you back home,safe and sound baby. Please let time past faster.

And also, i really have to start studying for the upcoming workplace law text on the 30th. Its so dumb to have a test on Sunday laH! aRGHH!!! another weekend to sleep GONE!

OTB presentation tomorrow, and richard say we have to really be in FORMAL attire. fuck man.its so stupid, you get us to go up with ur business wear for like a 15 mins presentation then what?! its just totoal nonsense when they say we have to learn to be professional, we will when we have to, but this is just effing dumb. Still figuring whether i wanna wear my heels or flats tomorrow, i dont want another fall! :( Sigh Sigh..

I have mixed feeling regarding"that" matter i dont know why. it sucks so much that i cant even say it out here when this is my space, but who knows who is reading this shitty stuff that i am writing.. i wish everyone of my friends is like "her". no judgement and everything, just support.I am just relief but at the same time, not happy. i think i'll actually be happy if it really happens.
i dont know why, i m insane.Sigh

2011-10-22T22:31:00.003+08:00

Green Apple bubble tea

Meat lover pizza

Xiao jiu's lamp chop

Joey's chicken chop

My Sirloin steak

Went to bugis to get some ingredients for sushi making tomorrow with Joey and Xiao Jiu.

After that head to V8 for dinner. :) and Love came online, so happy.Excited for sushi making tomorrow. Going to have quite a few variety of sushi tomorrow, corn,tuna,crabmeat & cucumber :D

Yay...

2011-10-22T01:17:00.002+08:00

R.I.P Little Charmaine, you've put up a strong fight throughout this past few years.

May all the angels be with you...

Another little life is lost, just a kid going through so much at such a young age, when all the kids her age should be enjoying their childhood and creating wonderful memories. Having all the fun and laughter in the world. But she was such a strong little warrior battling neuroblastom since 2009.

Theres no reason to put a child through so much pain. why is the world so unfair...

2011-10-20T15:55:00.003+08:00

Guess who's smiling like a retarded again? hahas. ME!
Get to tok to him on the phone about 10 mins and shortly after he came online and we got to skype for another 45 mins. So glad to see him again, although its just been a couple of days. glad to see that he's doing well and he said that they are having lamb for dinner. LOL. seems like a happyguy to me :) imy.

I am glad i confide in "you" yesterday, thank you for your support and everything.What would i do without a friend like you? Thank you.

Countdown: 36 more days.

2011-10-18T23:57:00.003+08:00

A little happy today, like what i tweeted, i smile like a retarded when he call me this morning while i am on my way to school.So freaking happy whenever i get to hear his voice. Pardon me for acting like this, i am just not used to life without him for the time being.Managed to receive a text from him and exchange a couple of emails. think consider quite good already lahs. But hope he can get me the area code soon, tried a few times but keep cannot. Sigh Sigh.. Goin back to KC to work tomorrow, kind of unwilling but i am super broke now and i have to keep myself occupied, better than staying at home alone and i'll start thinking about him again :( wonder if he'll call tomorrow. Looking forward to it.

37 more days..

2011-10-17T22:26:00.003+08:00

Love left for Aussie this afternoon.Sigh, i cant get used to the fact that he's not around beside me, he's not a phonecall ,text or whatsapp away..i kept myself occupied the whole day so i dont have time to think about him and make myself feel bad, but it doesnt really help and i just kept waiting for my phone to ring ,to hear his voice and to know that he alrdy reach aussie safe and sound, looking forward to where i can call him everynight or so.At least i wont feel that lonely and sad when i get to hear his voice. I came home after meeting my classmate just now and the first thing i did was to take my phone out to call him, but then i realised that i cant.Keeping my phone beside me 24/7 no matter where i go cause i dont wanna miss a single call from him.

I miss you lah kafaz lee jenn ming, why must you go!!!! faster come back to singapore can?!!! ;( Sigh..

39 more days left.

2011-10-17T03:36:00.002+08:00

A month ago, i was still saying that "i wont cry lahh" if he was to go aussie for 6 weeks or "aiyah, still so long" BUT time do really pass fast,especially this month. and he's leaving in a couple of hours. I couldnt bear to let him go just now when we were supposed to part at the interchange so he came over, and the night just became so emotional. The tears, the unwillingness to let go of him, promising him that i wont cry but i still did and so did he.. its just so saddening.

Just this morning, i was still pissed off at him and tweeted some bad stuff about our relationship, even mention i dont even feel like contacting him for the next 6 weeks but it is so impossible, which i realised an 2 hours ago... no matter how much i scold him, how much i always say "i hate you" to him, the feeling is always still there somehow behind all the tears and hatred i was feeling at that point of time.

He baked me cookies :) Actually i asked him to! and he did :D and he said that the cookies are supposed to last me till the day he came back, one for each day but i think his jackass friend!!!!! went to ate some away when he helped him to bring the cookies over, cuz forgetful him forgotten about it...Sigh Sigh.. I just want this 6 weeks to past real quickly and i want to see him safe and sound walking out of the arrival gates..Sigh

2011-10-16T00:34:00.002+08:00

I'am so freaking stressed out with school, work, money & relationship! Argh, i feel like my head is going to burst soon and i am just going to end up having those feelings of giving up on everything and everyone,and end up in a pathetic state again.Sigh.

2011-10-15T01:04:00.004+08:00

Nora's belated birthday treat at Kublai Khan Mongolian BBQ restaurant.

Had phat thai in the afternoon during lunch with carlyn and christabel. Gosh do i miss thai food. I miss phuket, i miss the food. i wanna go back to phuket or bangkok so badly. Sigh :(

Anyway, had a meal with the belated birthday girl, later xian went off first while the rest of us (me,sara,xinyi and nora) went to whitesand to slack and chat.

Okay, enough buffet for this month. Gotto stop with all these crazy eating, putting on crazy amount of weight. Trying to eat grapefruit for the next 2 weeks to see if it really helps, anyway its supposed to be healthy according to research which benefit the human body in quite a few ways. so shall try..

Wanna do some crazy shopping tomorrow, wonder if mum will go mad but dorothy perkins is having sales!!!! like up to 50% plus xiaojiu have citibank credit card which can get me another additional 10% off. :( shall ask her tomorrow and hopefully she will allow me to...

2011-10-14T23:59:00.001+08:00

Kiseki Japanese Buffet Restaurant with him yesterday. was suppose to be a date, we haven gone on a date for such a bloody long time, but disappointing , he didnt plan anything at all. Gosh, so hopeless to the max.. Sigh. treated him to a lunch buffet before he fly off this coming monday.Later head back to my house to slack and he went off at like 11pm.

2011-10-12T00:34:00.004+08:00

Happy 28th Love..

Was just on the phone with him and we started talking about his aussie trip next monday and he told me his eyes were getting teary. 6 weeks, 42 days without him. We've never been separated that long before, max 2-3 weeks but we get to talk on the phone almost every night or so, but this time its gonna be different. I dont bear to see him go but i guess i dont have a choice after all. Just hope he comes back safe and sound. i want to send him off, but i am afraid of all the emotions that i'll be feeling and i dont want to see him cry nor do i want him to see me cry.This 6 weeks is going to be so tough, i hope we can start a brand new chapter after this 6 weeks...

Well good news aside, i just got back the results for my first assignment for OTB and i passed the freaking paper. Such mixed feeling though, happy that i passed for the first submission but wish that the results were a little higher. But oh well, more effort and better luck next time. :)

Sigh..i am getting really worried...

2011-10-08T00:36:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday my dear brother. I cant believe that you're 23 already. we sure grow old pretty damm fast.I hope you like the oreo cheesecake i bought you. Love you. :)

2011-10-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!!! :D

you're finally 20th. welcome to our club! i wish you all the best in life. stay cheerful and happy.always keep that smile of yours on your face cause it really cheer people around you up. Thank you for being such a wonderful friend, always giving me advices when i am down,you're like a family to me. You're the first person that spoke to me when we were in secondary one, you were the first friend i had in secondary school and time flies and its been 7 years since we knew each other, i hope our friendship will last forever, and i still have a wonderful friend like you,even when we are both old with wrinkles and whitehair.Have a wonderful birthday darling. Love you :)

2011-10-05T21:34:00.003+08:00

hay baby, please get well soon and come home. I miss you so freaking much that i just break down in tears whenever i think about you. i miss the sound of your bell tingling when you walk around the house, i miss you running to my room to look for me everyday to look for me to let me know you're home. i miss you barking to the sound of our doorbell and the ringing of our housephone. you mean so much to me and i want you home healthy and happy. dont be afraid and dont feel lonely by yourselve at the clinic.i know you're scared and you want to go home,be good and just sleep when you're tired, dont wait for us,cause we'll be there by your side whenever we get the chance to. Just get well soon and come home..

I love you...

2011-10-03T13:08:00.002+08:00

Random post:

Made sushi with cousins yesterday. Had a lot of fun .the sushi doesnt look that good cause its our first time doing it, but it taste nice. Might be doing it again next week. :)Love sushi..

After what happened yesterday,like what xiaojiu say, we really get to see the truth about some people. Its just disappointing. Such hypocrite...

Just managed to finish the ppt slides and summary for my KOL group project. Still got so much more to do, seems like its never ending.

I am so fucking broke cause i haven been working for the past 1 month due to school and i cant gauge when i can work or when i cant work due to these endless works. Sigh..

2011-09-30T01:24:00.002+08:00

Its been two days and all the question marks are still in my mind.. why why why..

i am sorry but i cant just pretend that all these stuff did not happen, and i will not apologise or take back any of my words.i am not going to apologise even those aunties come straight up to me and asked me to forget it, i wont. cause they dont understand how i feel, they dont know what you did and what you said, they dont understand that i am the one thats being hurt by you, not the opposite.i'll just tell them the truth and shut them up and tell them not to interfer instead,i dont care if i am rude or my attitude sucks,but thats the truth.Take it or leave it. if you dont want me to interfer then dont come and interfer in my problems.. it doesnt mean that just because you guys are all older it means you guys are right in everything. its not and its not fucking fair.....

you're my mother but you're not always right..why wont you just listen. i cant just let things go and just forget it like what others are telling me to do so,cause i cant erase e scene where you just pratically lie right infront of my face and then confronted me about why i lie instead of asking yourself that question. I really cant...

This family is just broken...

2011-09-29T14:08:00.005+08:00

Turns out you're such a hyprocite...
All the bad guys are trying to say that they are the good guys, seriously, who are you trying to bluff??? What a joke.

2011-09-29T00:19:00.003+08:00

Had school in the morning from 9am-12pm. OTB is getting really dry, at time i am trying really not to not close my eyes, at times i'll be entertaining byself by reading FML on my itouch..anything to make the time pass faster... After school met up with Sara since nora was late, we went to have subway for lunch first. yumm yumm :)
dear nora finally came after like being late for 1.5 hours. that girl! went to walked around a little, they shopped a little while i didnt shop at all today.. after that went to went to have yogurt and sat down to chitchat.

Headed over to tanjong pagar early just because they say that 2d1n is always crowded, so the kiasu us + really free us headed down at 5 plus to wrote our name on the waiting list. Lol.

The different kinds of meat were really big and generous, the sauce was a little too salty for me but awesome.. The orgasm in your mouth when you wrap the different kind of meat with the vege and sauce and put it in your mouth! but the place was really warm though, no air conditioner and all the oil and smoke made us really smelly... hahas. Calista only came like close to 8pm, that queen forever late like usual... went to Tom Tom cafe after that to have a drink and continue our chit chat and shared a cab home after that. :)

2011-09-27T23:41:00.004+08:00

He's the best uncle ever.

Just had a 2 hour long conversation with XJ over the phone.I really treasure this uncle& niece relationship between us.He's more than a family that i could ever have, my mum doesnt even talk to me like for 2 hours accumulated over 1 or 2 weeks,dont even mention my dad or my brother. He gave advices and understand my feeling unlike my real family.He even asked me not to think too much and have a good sleep. I mean not everyone is lucky enough to have a relative like this. Thus no matter what happens,i'll be supporting him always.Jia you xiaojiu! :D lets fight this battle against the "Modern Wu Ze Tian" together!:)

Boyfriend was so sweet too,i told him i feel so upset and asked him to take me away, and he replied me with "Are you willing to be with me even without a goodplace to stay and no swimming pool?But i will make you happy and glad being with me???" a little correction of his english. but aint that sweet. i cant stop smiling when i see that. if only he's that sweet all the time, i'll be a really happy lady. :)

2011-09-27T17:31:00.002+08:00

Mum, you're in denial. Why must you insist on something when it doesnt even make sense. why do you listen and then act like you didnt hear anything.. why do you insist that its others fault and not take any responsibility. why are you hurting everyone around you who are the closest to you... why did you sent that text to hurt me.. what makes you think that you're not hurting me and i am hurting you.. dont i have feelings like you do.. why do you act strong when you're not at all... why are you putting up a false front and acting like everyone around you is so insignificant.. why do you only listen to other people side of the story that aint even true and push all the blame to me.. why do you ask me to shut my mouth up when you're there complaining and making a fuss about everythin to me.. why do you ask me not to interfer when you are the one that asked me to talk sense to my uncle.. why are you driving my uncle away, when he's the only one in the family whom i am close with and i can trust and share my thoughts with just cause of your stubborness.. why why why.. why haven you think about how other feels and think too.. WHY!

i swear i need a recorder to record every single word that you said... why say something then back out and then say that you didnt say... why are you trying to defend yourself and save your face and try to push all the blame to your daughter instead. why do you say that i dont respect you, and dont treat you like my mum at all... why did you even bear to say such stuff when you dont even realise how badly you are hurting me and how hard i am trying to control my tears in class.. why do you only assume that my words hurt you and you're not hurting me.. i am your fucking daughter for goodness sake..

why did you say that i dont respect you and treat you like my mum? why not ask youself when is the last time we had dinner as a family, when is the last time when you dont place the dog as the top piority instead of me? why werent you there when i needed you? why did you left me all alone in singapore when you knew that i was scared, when did you show me that you care? i am never a piority to you.. and i did not even say anything about it but there you are with this text saying all these hurtful stuff that you assume wont hurt me.

what did i do wrongly? i didnt tell you anything hurtful that i've heard that others had said behind your back, i didnt say that you're wrong, i gave you my advice from what i knew and tried to make you understand,not raising my voice or anything even when i knew you were wrong? i shared my views with you and you agreed and even told other ppl that what i say make sense, why did you turn your back and then snap at me, saying that i made things worst? what did i even do? why did you say that every word i say hurts you when i did not even scold you or whatever and just tell you how the facts that you refused to face???

did you not say that whatever my uncle do is his responsibility, his decision and he gotto face his own consequence. you said that you're not against his friends and you care about my uncle ,scared that he will get con, but at the end of the day, its his decision. did you not say that?

if you dont call that agreeing to let my uncle make decisions, what do you call that???

did i not explain to you that even if you make his friend rent a place outside, he will still end up staying at my uncle's and he wont even go back to that place to sleep and you would just end up throwing thousands of dollars a year to pay for a rental that nobody is even staying.. did i not say that? did you not say that to my auntie and then told her wad i say made sense???

why did you get all flared up just cause someone touched till you weakpoint. why wont you admit that you're bias against that particular worker. why are you so sensitive when others talk about it. its so bloody obvious to people around you. why are you defending that worker, is it really like what others say? bcuz you guys had a thing in the past?why wont you understand that there are alot of things that people can say to make you back off but they just tolerate you, not wanting to embarras you. instead of taking a step back, you became even more defensive and stubborn. if you did not do anything wrong , why are you being so defensive...

when you said that you told the other aunties about my uncle's because you dont want them to blame you if something really happen, i believed you and thought to myself, okay maybe we all misunderstood you, and i started to try to stand in your point of view, after listening to the stuff you said, i blame myself and hated myself for agreeing with what the others say about you..i dont know what my auntie told you that make you behave like this, why are you always acting like that based on something that people say that aint even true? my uncle merely told them that i told him that you agree to let him make his own decision, didnt you say that e decision lies in him? what did i say wrongly? just because someone touched till your weakpoint, you get all defensive and said such stuff about me.. why are you defending that worker and going against your daughter??

you're disappointed in me?No, i am the one thats totally disappointed in you, mum..my heart totally sank when you said those words,i cant believe it came from you...i respected you, i really do, but since you say those words... lets just forget about it and go according to what you think, since you're always right...forget about my thoughts of even thinking that i should come lend a hand in the company after my degree.forget about me even thinking that maybe the cousins and me might have a chance to try to continue with the business..forget about me trying to understand the things you said to your customers..forget about me ever thinking that you're great for knowing all these stuff.. forget the thoughts of even trying to fufil your wish of someone taking over and not letting the business die.. forget all the concerns and worries that i ever had for you, forget i ever exist, and forget that i am even your daughter. just forget it..

2011-09-27T11:45:00.003+08:00

Taeyang ~ I Need a Girl (Dance Ver.)

2011-09-25T21:12:00.004+08:00

Cousin finally booked out yesterday. Went to get ingredients for sushi, most probably gonna make sushi next week, so excited. cant wait! :D.. went to this hk cafe at illuma for dinner when intially we wanted to go to fish manhatten, but we have to wait for like >30 mins. But when we ordered our food, the queue was already gone. Dammit! but the food was great though.. :) Its good to have you back cousin.

& Sorry xiaojiu, i didnt noe that my previous post will make you feel that way. that wasnt my intention in the first place,i didnt mean to make you upset and stuff like that.. i do respect you and want you to be happy. If you really trust him and am confident of doing this, then please just go ahead, but no matter what, we can never trust anybody 100%, the only person we can really trust is ourselve. So please be careful, cause none of us want anything to happen to you.If things work out, everyone will be happy for you, and in case things dont work out, dont be softhearted, and do what you should do okay.you have my full support. :D

it sucks to know of the manpower problems in the company and stuff, and questions of whether the company will still be able to continue after mum and xiaojiu decided to retire. Its sad to see the company go down,but i dont know who will be able to manage the company. Sometimes i think about stuff like maybe next time in future, i will be able to help, or me and my cousins we can all help, but then we dont know how this business is like, we dont know how to operate a sewing machine, we dont know the operations etc stuff like this..will mum and xiaojiu trust us to handle the business, will we be able to learn how to manage the business in time? who else other than me among my cousins are interested? i dont know, but the business is indeed profitable if we know how to manage it but its really hard..

Ohhh, i have so many shitload things to do for school, i dont even know where to start. Hais.I dont know if going back to school is the right thing, cause its getting harder to cope with.Stress stress stress...

2011-09-22T22:51:00.003+08:00

Kbox with Sara darling in the afternoon followed by dinner at Just Acia. :)

I wish problems between mum and xiaojiu gets resolved soon. Its tough to get stuck in the middle between them, wondering if i should let them know what the other party told me, what to say and not what to say. It sucks to see their sibling relationship gets ruined when it involved someone whom one see as a friend and another see as a stranger..I dont agree with either of their doings but what can i say, its just impossible to take sides now.I dont think one can trust another party entirely especially when you only know them like less than a year. Dont even mention when some dont even know the true self of others even after being friends for years.Its just fustrating. I dont think xiaojiu should allow them to stay at his place. i know that he treats him as a good friend and he promised him that he could stay over at his place, i understand his point of view entirely, i really do. and on another hand, mum seems him as an employee and wants to maintain a employer-employee relationship. Mum is right, no matter how, things would change. we as cousins wouldnt get used to it suddenly with an additional member to our clique. Things would be different between our relationship with xiaojiu.I dont know if we can still talk so freely with him and crap and tell him our problems and have heart to heart talk, of we cant cause we dont feel comfortable with someone whom we dont even know.I dont feel comfortable sharing a room with another person that i dont really know, its just different. even though xiao jiu say to treat him as one of us and dont treat him like stranger, but its just aint easy when the rest of us are so bonded after years of hanging out and stuff. Its not entirely about traditional thinking or modernise thinking. Mum isnt wrong in getting worried that something might happen.Other than all these, of course theres still a lot of different aspects to look at. its just not worth ruining a relationship because of someone they dont really know.I wish they just view this whole issue in an entirely different way.

2011-09-21T22:03:00.002+08:00

Went to Wen Dao Shi-搵到食with the girls for dinner jus now.

2011-09-19T00:05:00.000+08:00

Gonna try making sushi one of these days. :)

2011-09-16T23:28:00.002+08:00

Just bought new laptop today,since this current one is gonna give up on me soon. Gonna get this current one fix and used it for my funshion,sims3 and other stuff. Dont worry my dear laptop, i wont neglect you. you've accompany me through alot ever since my poly days, its just time for a new buddy to share your burden and i have to fixed you up :)

2011-09-13T22:29:00.003+08:00

Baked Beef Ballsb :D

Decided not to go for kbox and just have dinner instead. Pizza hut with the 3 babes. Sara, Nora and Zhixian :D yummy.. :

2011-09-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

Its mid autum festival today as well as 27th month with Love. Happy 27th month, sorry i forgort. keep thinking that today is sunday and forgort about it. even ask cousin what date it was today and he told me 9th! even worst than me! Had steamboat at xiao jiu house just now and i just ate a small yam filling mooncake! awesome.:)

meeting sara and zhixian for kbox 2mr followed by dinner with nora,calista and rachel in the evening. Looking forward to it.:)

2011-09-08T00:33:00.002+08:00

Remember how i mention in my last post that i am going to LaoBeijing again with Sara Darling for High Tea buffet after she was tempted by the pictures of the food i took when i went with Love? We honestly did had that in mind and we headed over to Novena, but since it was still early, we went to walk around for a little and we walked past Zhou's Kitchen. Turn out that they had High Tea buffet at the same time and the price seems quite close to lao beijing too. But in the end we end up paying $5 exta individually. But the food was really really really worth it!! Its really super awesome. Will definetly go back there next time. I miss the food already, thinking of it now makes me hungry. Oh man..

We kept disturbing poor xinyi by whatsapp-ing er pics of her favourite Har Gao to tempt her.
hahas.Sorry Xinyi! :D After that we went back to downtown to catch a movie. "Crazy,Stupid,Love" Nice movie. Later accompany Sara darling to walk to the interchange and took 358 home. :)

Today is officially the first day of school. Took the morning squeezy train and i realised that i can never seat if i am going to school in the morning cause if i have a seat, then it will be so damm bloody hard to get out when the train reached Bugis. So i decided to stand by the door this morning.. See quite a lot of familiar faces in class today, but none that i know of or talked to before. ad an hour and a half of theory and then we had to get into groups for projects. Which is what i hate the most. Argh. Got no choice but to open my damm mouth to get into a group, group mates were kinda nice though. :) Finish the lesson like 30 mins earlier than expected but end up with a 800 word assignment which i am having so much problem with now. Sigh Sigh. dunoe how to tackle the question at all with all the plagiarism and referencing shit. Oh good lord, save me..Hope i am in the same class as Carlyn the cat on friday! :D

2011-09-06T00:09:00.002+08:00

Went to lao bei jing for high tea buffet with love today.
Xiao long bao and siew mai was awesome. the rest was so so only.. Sara was tempted after looking at the pictures and i cant believe it but i am going with her to the novena branch 2mr! Omg..hahahahs...Looking forward to the siewmai and xiao long bao once again.:)

Wore the new nude wedges out today and my feet suffered a lot!!!!!! spend a huge sum of money today, did some retail therapy ..School starts on Wednesday. Kinda excited! :D

And also i cant believe my eyes but i scored a Distinction for my POA !! Omg!!!!!! So freaking happy and proud of myself when i hate poa so freaking much till the extend that i even fail my O level poa even with tution. But i hate the tutor plus my teacher at that point of time and my tutor even said stuff like " She cant make it" to my mum! Argh... Told mum about it and she seems so proud of me. hahas. like the feeling when she's proud of me. Oh well.. nothing much to say anymore. Byess :)

2011-09-04T00:26:00.002+08:00

Went school for referencing workshop with carlyn this morning. Lucky it ended early.Went to uncle house after that and we went to park mall to have mongolian buffet.Last meal with Jeryl before he enlist into tekong this coming friday. Good luck cousin!Jia you! :D I think i am gonna kind of miss him a little! hahas.. See you in a couple of weeks yea! :D

2011-09-02T22:19:00.002+08:00

I hope that when things dont end up the way we want it to be someday, i'l have the courage to say...

Sometimes people find that it's so hard just to say goodbye.
It ain't easy the more and the more you try.
So there'll be cheating, better saving, but not me and my boy.
We understand that we're friends and it just ain't working,
no point in the constant fighting.
So when we go nuts, for a minute, and admit that we're just not in it.
I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Clock can tick away, happy will fall in place.
I know, my heart will break, a new me will fill this space.

2011-08-29T23:02:00.002+08:00

Was packing my room awhile ago, getting rid of the mess, putting away secondary scoo textbooks and making room for my upcoming school related stuff..Cleared my drawer and went through these letters as well.. Once in awhile when i clean my room, i never failed to take out al these letters from the past and read it again. Innocent us in the past during pri schoo stuff.. all the best friends forever talks and such, if only it were true.. its a pity that we just lose contact when we were once such good friends.. i definetly do miss my pri school days, the student care days.. definetly.. so so much.. Letters from "primary school best friends", letters from ex pri school teacher, letters exchange from a pri sku frnd that went back to jarkarta.. at first we were exchanging letters but it just kinda stop somehow.. etc and more.. i kept every single letter and its been years..such a long time ago.. good memories.

Went to courts with love to get subway for lunch today, kinda weird but our main purpose was to head to giant to do some grocery shopping.. bought some stuff came back and went for a short swim before one of the security guard came to tell us that there might be lightning and such and asked us to get out from the pool. totally sian, cause i haven swam ever since i came back from phuket and i finally decide to get my ass in the pool today and such thing happen. Sad.

Orientation part 1 on Thursday. Hope it wont be that bad.Sigh.

2011-08-28T22:35:00.001+08:00

Went to walk around with him yesterday and bought some stuff. i really love my buys so much! :D after that headed to meet xiaojiu and cousins for dinner at aston's.Yummy.. :)

2011-08-26T21:40:00.002+08:00

I didnt even get to see you today.
I dont understand how we can be loving one day and end up screaming at each other trying to tear other's throat out the next day.I really dont understand. I hate this so freaking much.

I wish someone can hug me now and tell me everythings gonna be alright.

2011-08-25T20:54:00.002+08:00

Finally meet up with some of the girls for dinner after a few weeks.Pity not everyone were there.Appreciate that they will still take the time to meet up for dinner despite working and having ots and shows. Had dinner at madjack with Nora,Xinyi and calista while sara came after her show then we had dessert and drinks at xinwang. Xinyi and Nora left after that since they have to work early the next day again. while me ,sara and calista just go on n on chatting and chatting, and even came over to my place to chat and chat and chat till like 3am before they went home.Had such a great time with them. Being able to talk to them about problems and getting their advices.

Went to Kbox with calista today and sang for 4 hours. My throat is now really painful but its so worth it i think. Had such a great time! :)
Love is finally coming out tomorrow, so i can meet him after work. Morning Shift tomorrow. damm damm.. I should probably go to bed now.. But i am watchin The nine lifes of Chloe King. Hee :D

2011-08-24T18:04:00.002+08:00

It really flatters me that some peoples lives are SO boring, they actually sit around & talk about mine. I didn't realize anything was so damn special about it!Oh well, my mother taught me better than that, so i shall pretend like i did not see anything.. do continue to be sarcastic and go on and on about it. It really flatters me. Thank you! :) i am not mentioning any names. oh well..Cheers! :D

2011-08-23T00:59:00.002+08:00

Prudence 9th Birthday at Kids Club :)

I miss playing volleyball and hanging out with those guys.It was so much fun!!! :D

2011-08-21T23:22:00.002+08:00

Had a bad night with him ontuhrsday ,got really upset and fustrated. But he promised me some stuff and i hope he can really keep his promise this time. Friday ,Went to walk around with him at bugis, bought two blouse for myself and went for a nice dinner at sakae sushi at tanjong pagar.Enjoy the food and the company. been such a long time since we had times like this to our own. do some shopping, spend time with each other, nice dinner, being able to talk to each other.. even had a walk after dinner and home sweet home.

Saturday evening, meet Cloudy,chewyan,carlyn and francis at harbourfront. Went to buy some food for the potluck + Prudence birthday party at kids club. Went to KC, see some colleagues that i haven see for a long time. great to see them. Even played volleyball with the few of them despite being dressed like that.But had a great time! :D Hope we get to meet out outside soon :) After the party, went over to xiao jiu's house to stay over :)

2011-08-17T23:31:00.003+08:00

Just finish with my POA paper. At least 4 pre-requisite modules are over. my only hope is that i pass the paper. just a pass and i am happy, not asking for a lot.Weeee..I am really gonna miss going to school with cloudy cause theres always her to talk to.

Please think before you open your mouth and start insulting me like this okay. if you think i got no feeling.. so now you're next in line to hurt me again? what do u mean by what kind of girlfriend am i? just bcuz i dun wanna accompany you on the phone and you say this kind of stuff to me. How about the times when you dont even bother calling me or texting me for the whole day, with an excuse that you're busy. so you're allowed to do your stuff while i am not allowed to do mine?you cant tolerate being aone for a day while i have to tolerate such loneliness from you for the past 2 weeks. isnt it too much for you to say this kind of stuff? are you being fair to me a not!

Then what kind of boyfriend have you been recently.. not the kind that i want.thats all i know. you can use excuses like you got no time cause u need to go back to camp, when i ask u to come accompany me lunch.. tts like wad.. 12pm n u book in at 1030pm? am i asking u to go for a feast with me that take so many hours?! u use ridiculous excuses like this but you can go out with your buddies like till night time before you book it.?! i what is this? i really dont wanna listen to your crap anymore. i am running out of patience, i am tired of your crap excuses.. just get out of my life seriously if this is the way you're gonna continue behaving. i honestly dont need you in my life.. i think i deserve better than this..

2011-08-16T21:14:00.001+08:00

If I die young, bury me in satin.
Lay me down on a bed of roses, Sink me in the river at dawn .
Send me away with the words of a love song...

Its my POA paper tomorrow.
Wish me luck. :)

2011-08-14T22:10:00.002+08:00

Hi there! :)
So its finally the last lesson for my pre-requisite module.as well as my last lesson with cloudy too! Gonna miss being in the same class as her, being stressed up together with her over all the accountings.I will miss our lecturer too. Christopher Leong. really good lecturer, he's so funny and all his jokes just make us wake up in class. gonna have to buck up for this module. Exam is in 3 days and i am so scared. Got a lot of practice to do. Got to shorten my working timing as well as i couldnt cancel work, thus i hope to get more practice and i hope that i too have the motivation to push myself to do well. Accounting is indeed my worst fear and my worst enemy. I am kinda proud of myself for having clear all the 3 modules and this is finally my last module to clear. a pass, a credit and a distinction for the 3 modules, not that bad i think, its been such a long time since i get such decent grades.

Finally bring xiaojiu to Vienna buffet as his birthdya treat for next saturday, together with Dennis, Amos, Jeryl and joey. Look too shag to post any photos up here. After a 7 hour accounting lesson, what would you expect huh!

Its my 5 yi birthday today.
Happy Birthday 5yi! :) the cake looks great and taste great as well! Yummy. Alright. gonna read up a little about cash flow and try to do some accounts before i head to bed. I am so tired.

2011-08-09T22:11:00.003+08:00

I forgort its leo's birthday today too. Love of my life turn 7 years old today.
Happy birthday to my leoleo too :) The neighbour's daughter bought leo this bumblee outfit as his birthday present. so cute eh! :) Kinda disappointed with the cake though!!! the secret receipe person really did a freaking bad job in the writings. a nice cake ruined by the writings! Disappointed! only saw it when i openn the box at xiao jiu house just now as auntie collected it in the afternoon. I will definetly request for a new cake if i was the one collecting it! Freaking awful!

No matter what, hope xiao jiu like his shades and spects that we bought him.

Finally have a off day for myself tomorrow. time to catch up on videos and sleep tonight!

2011-08-09T00:18:00.003+08:00

Another Song that i am in love with. Couldnt get it out of my mind after i heard it just now when i was having dinner at subway with boyfrnd. i am so tired. From last thur,work,fri sku,sat sku,sun sku, and today work.. i am so glad i have the next 2 days to myself to finish up my accounting assignment and catch up on my sleep. But having cramps now :( feel so uncomfortable inside. and also since its past 12am

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST XIAO JIU!!! :D

walked a little around vivo after work just now and managed to buy his birthday present. And i had fun wrapping it just now. i hope he had as much fun unwrapping it. Muahahas :)
Thank you for always being there. you're like the best shopping partner and we cousins could always rely on you in anything. Thank you for listening to ranting about life and complaints about our parents at times. Thank you for your advices on stuff.Thank you for the many dinner treats that you gave us. Thank you for always bringing us out on saturdays.Thank you for being the best uncle in the world!
Gonna bring him to vienna buffet this coming saturday as his birthday treat. cant wait! So happy!!!!!